_{ORIGINALGRILLA.}

_{‘     necrosis,   son.    death by enzymatic degradation.    s’ just a fancy way of sayin’ it fucks up your neurotransmitters ‘til they ain’t transmittin’ no more.    hell yeah,   piranha’s got  mad  jaw strength    —    i saw this thing on national geographic where they were like,   testin’ its bite or whatever ?    said those suckers chomp down harder than a  great white.    bite force  thirty times  their body weight,   ain’t that some shit ?     ’}

_{❛     –––––     whoa,  whoa,  whoa.    hold up.    that’s  what you do in your spare time ?    watch national geographic like some crusty old dude in an old folks’ home ?     ❜     an opportunity presented itself and she’d have been damned if she didn’t take it.     ❛     anyways,  you know all them stupid hollywood movies about piranhas  attackin’ people ?    hella exaggerated.    they’re pretty chill about stayin’ in their lane unless you’re fuckin’ with ‘em or baitin’ ‘em like some kinda freakin’ dumbass.    twitch would probably lose an arm.     ❜}

_{ORIGINALGRILLA.}

_{‘     now,   stuck  ain’t the same as a cold case.    i been stuck.    waitin’ on warrants,   lab results    —    waitin’ for the DA t’ pull his head out of his ass    —    blah,   blah.    that’s the shit they  don’t  tell you about,   y’ know,   all that  waitin’.    that,   uh,   that larsen case,   a couple years back ?    girl we found in discovery park ?    that  was a whole lot’a waitin’.    but we got ‘em,   so.    job well done.    you know how we do.     ’}

_{the sentiment catches him off guard,   thumb swiping his lower lip ;   gives him pause in the process of pulling dishes from a cabinet.    one of the good ones.    not something he’s heard in excess,   but the impact is a little more significant when it comes from bullet.}

_{‘     –––––––    linden ain’t bad.    think she had it  out  for me when we first got paired up.     ’}

_{it’s a punchline,   the best he can manage,   like none of that was a big deal.    the expression contained within a split - second’s glance tells a different story.}

_{he clears his throat,   turns his back again to pull the sunny d from the refrigerator and pour some of it out into a glass.}

_{‘     this stuff’s like ninety - five percent  sugar.    damn teeth’re gonna rot out’cha head.     ’}

_{❛     nah,  i mean    –––––    stuck like,  you’re out there strugglin’ to put  two ‘n two together,  meanwhile the killer’s jus’ kickin’ back,  havin’ a smoke ‘n a beer,  enjoyin’ his freedom.    that kinda stuck.    …  ain’t that the same case where mayor richmond got  shot  or somethin’ ?     ❜}

_{how could she forget ?    thirteen,  fresh meat on the streets of seattle.    it was the first time her parents  begged and pleaded  for their child to come home,  worried she might end up like the larsen girl.    two weeks away from her fourteenth birthday.     she remembers the rumours that spread like  goddamn wildfire  and talk of detectives picking up some  junkie,  questioning him at the skate park.}

_{❛     holy crap.    that  was  you ‘n linden !    those pigs who grilled that meth - head !    small world,  ain’t it ?     ❜}

_{she likes linden.    reminds her of kallie in some ways.    the freckled fair skin and red hair,  mostly.    can’t imagine that woman  ever  taking a liking to someone like  holder  under any other circumstance    (    it’s the juxtaposition of their partnership.    opposites attract.    it works for them.     )}

_{❛     see,  i like ‘em a li’l  feisty  sometimes.    y’ know them redheads got a mean temper,  right ?    ❜     shoulders then hitch in a shrug.     ❛    1 - 800 - did i ask for your damn opinion ?    i’d be drinkin’ those nasty ass  v8  juices and chowin’ down  gluten - free  if it was up t’ you.     ❜}

_{ORIGINALGRILLA.}

_{‘     yup.    venom’s in their dorsal ‘n pectoral spines.    see,   most of the time you get stung in the  hand  but some fool on catfishin’ kings caught one in the  thigh.    yo,   piranhas are old as  shit    —    like,   they got fossils from 25 million years ago.     ’}

_{❛     yeah !    it actually  breaks down  red blood cells ‘n  poisons  the nervous system.    it ain’t the venom that can kill you,  either    ––––    it’s all that bacteria from the li’l pieces of  spine  ‘n other tissues that can break off ‘n cause mad infections,  yo.    piranhas are so badass !    they can bite through  a human hand  in,  like,  five seconds !    ❜}

hurt meme.

blueneighbcrhood:

_{“ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re gonna be okay.”
“i feel like everyone’s miles away from me.”
“my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.”
“i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.”
“don’t close your eyes, please don’t close your eyes!”
“i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”
“please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.”
“you don’t care, nobody cares, just leave.”
“you’re my friend, of course i fucking care.”
“i fucked up, why do you not care?”
“i can’t walk, just go on without me.”
“you have broken ribs, take it easy.”
“i have no idea how to do cpr.”
“whose blood is that?”
“apply pressure to the wound, don’t let go.”
“don’t you dare fucking let go!” 
“what the hell happened to you?” 
“are they dead? did you kill them?” 
“do you know what you’ve done?” 
“you’re either with me or against me.” 
“who the hell did this to you?” 
“are you alright? you hit your head pretty hard…” 
“i can’t see! what’s happening to me?” 
“when was the last time you ate?” 
“what do you mean you’re fine? you are not fine!” 
 “i’m fine, it’s just a flesh wound, i’ll be okay.” 
“for how long? how long were you bottling this up?“ 
“there’s so much blood, you won’t last.” 
“are you… throwing up in there?” 
“why aren’t you eating?” 
“just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.” 
“i can’t breathe, i can’t –” 
"i woke up, and you were gone.” 
“just tell me something, was it really worth it?” 
"it’s okay to hurt and breakdown. you don’t have to be strong all the time.”}

thekillingfangroup:

^{You wanna act like a man, I will treat you like a man. Make no mistake about it. I will swipe the floor with your little baby butch bitch ass, right in front of your little skank hoe girlfriend. You feel me?}

_{ORIGINALGRILLA.}

_{‘     sounds like you didn’t give her much  choice,   li’l man.     ’       he lets out a short laugh,   involuntary and sincere.       ‘     more than me  my  ASS.    hey,   just ‘cause you got a thing for rabbits and their  stomach muscles  don’t mean i can’t still swipe the floor with your ass.    y’ know catfish are carnivores,   ‘n they got taste buds all over their bodies ?     ’}

_{❛     nobody  deserves  t’ be  shanked  when they’re in diapers,  yo !    get outta here.     ❜     at least he keeps things interesting.     ❛     –––––     yeah.    some of ‘em are poisonous too.    got these glands in their skin that secrete these nasty toxins when they’re stressed ‘n shit.    did you know piranhas are actually omnivores ?    ❜}

_{ORIGINALGRILLA.}

_{‘     hell  no.    i’m a  1 - 900 - rockstar.     ’}

_{truthfully,   he hasn’t been at the grindstone long enough to leave room for  COLD CASES.    but there’s the ones you can’t crack,   and the ones you can’t close    —    he’d take the former any day,   because few things grate more than watching a perp  walk  on some technicality.    red tape.    insufficient evidence.    whatever.    that always reads like sloppy police work,   and it rankles him in more ways than he can name.}

_{goldie had walked,   initially.    cut loose   real  quick on skinner’s order,   under the pretense of  leading them to more bodies.    like so much bullshit.}

_{fuck skinner.    he deserved what he got.}

_{holder’s only regret is that it played out the way it did.}

_{hands thrown up in surrender,   he circles around the counter island and grabs that stupid apron with a theatrical sweep of his arm.       ‘     alright,   playa,   just this once i’ma let you call the shots.    can i start’cha off with somethin’ to drink on this  fine  morning ?     ’}

_{❛    aw,  c’mon !    that’s bullshit ‘n you know it.    there’s gotta be  somethin’.    ain’t’cha ever been stuck ?     ❜}

_{like solving a two - thousand piece puzzle from beginning to end with no interim.    it must take a special kind of person to invest all that time and energy into solving  murders,  just so the public can spit in their faces and tell them they’re not doing their job fast enough.    bullet was no exception.    she reflects on that with only the bare minimum of understanding a fifteen year old  street rat  can have.}

_{sometimes,  when she’s been looking in the mirror too long and mapping out her scars,  she still resents him for dodging those calls.    wishes she’d never met him.    that the  pied piper  finished the job he started.    that she choked on the blood in her mouth.    that it got into her lungs.    and  these  are the times where she disappears.}

_{but there  are  others    ––––    times where she looks at him and sees  man  instead of  machine.   he’s a person with the same capacity for  human emotion  as anyone else.}

_{❛    …  you’re one of the good ones.    y’ know ?    you’re a good cop.    you ‘n linden are probably the best thing that’s happened t’ seattle.     ❜}

_{she snuffs out the cigarette   (    before it burns down to the filter,    )    then moves the ashtray back to its place atop of the coffee table.    doesn’t comment on the apron,  because the quirk of a brow says enough.    original grilla  is kind of false advertising for someone who doesn’t own a grill.}

_{❛     man,  i’m  always  callin’ the shots !    you got any more of that sunny d left ?     ❜     the same  sunny d  she toddles into the kitchen for at  ass o’clock in the morning  to drink straight from the damn bottle ?    damn right.}