i'm not your friend. i don't give a shit about you. you're just a nobody, nothing, punk-ass kid.
ind. bullet of amc's the killing.
private as hell. low activity.

ORIGINALGRILLA.

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    —    so it’s like  that.          if she’s angling for a distraction,   he can commiserate ;   but this can’t be the right way to go about it.    she’s only been out of the hospital a few weeks.    shouldn’t even be on the  streets,   let alone working cases.    it’s another of those situations,   like the drinking,   like the  drugs,   that he has no control over :   when she wants to do something,   she’ll do it whether he gives her the green light or not.       ‘     ain’t  about  trust.    look,   you wanna call in a favor ?   fine.    but that’s  it,   y’ hear ?    don’t even  breathe  on this case unless it goes through me first.    

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❛     yup.     ❜     it’s like  that,  because she’s grown tired of catering to what  others  think she needs versus what she thinks she needs,  which is nothing if not  purpose.    a will to keep herself afloat.    one that she’ll  find  anywhere she can.    she wants to  help.    not herself,  but those she cares about.    it’s all she’s  ever  wanted to do.    she lifts a hand to brush beneath her nose,  drawing in a breath and casting a sidelong glance before looking back.     ❛     it ain’t about  trust,  but you were just givin’ me the  third degree  over some scratch ?    whatever,  yo.    ain’t gonna dick around on yo’ case ‘n  fuck it up.    scout’s honour.     ❜

PERILOUSPOTION.

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eighteen. ‘  she quickly corrects,  eyes darting down to her bare middle.  ‘ my shit ?  it’s just my stomach. ‘  & to prove her point,  she keeps the shirt raised, a clear act of defiance. she refuses to back down.  ‘ if you don’t want to do it,  that’s fine.  i’ll go get it pierced at some shop that charges way too much & requires a fucking birth certificate.  or .. you could stop treating me like a high school prostitute & help me out.  your pick.  but just so you know ..  i prefer the latter. ‘

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❛     oh,  much better.     ❜     sarcasm coats the tongue,  laid on  thick  as arms fold over her chest.    doesn’t need to ask if the girl has always been this  forward  because she knows the type  too  well.    actively avoids even catching a glimpse of skin,  gaze narrowed in elsewhere.    sea level,  eye to eye    (    because if she doesn’t  see it,  she doesn’t run the risk of embarrassment.    )     ❛     all they’re gonna ask for is your  driver’s license,  yo.    but that’s your call t’ make.    you really gonna let a  dirty - ass  kid stick a needle in you ?     ❜     as if to drive her point home,  she unfolds her arms to present the  dirt and grime  beneath her fingernails,  encrusted around cuticles.    her hands are bruised,  unclean.    a result of living on the streets.

CRAVESFREEDOM.

                  she figures there’s no better place to wait for bullet than the overpass, if she was certain to show up anywhere, it was here. It took a few hours of waiting & patience ( which she doesn’t have much of, but the cheap pacman knock-off on her burner phone kept her entertained. ) when bullet enters her field of vision, she’s easy to spot, her short stature a dead giveaway.  ❛  hey!  ❜  she calls out, waiting until the girl notices her before approaching,  ❛  i’m back. — & i think it’s actually for good this time.  ❜  it’s not the first time she’s made such a claim only to be picked up and returned to her foster home ; she struggles to blend into the shadows of the city streets. ❛   — you HUNGRY?  ❜ her hand dives into her jacket pocket to retrieve a small wad of cash, discretely flashing the bills her way before tucking the money back into the safety of her coat.  ❛  my treat.  ❜  ( @junkyardteen )

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she hadn’t stopped  moving  since her feet touched ground this morning.    hadn’t intended to.    hadn’t  wanted to  until she reached the bridge,  where she could look out over the water and imagine kallie somewhere close by.    (    picture this.    an  impossible distance  lies between you and your best friend,  but there is  comfort  in knowing she counts the same stars,  wherever she is,  and that the water that flows in the rivers of seattle,  smooth like glass on this bitter morning,  will find her eventually.    )    intercepted at the overpass only two blocks from her destination,  she’s met with a familiar face.    one she hasn’t seen in  weeks,  and that alone is enough to lift her spirits.     ❛     yo,  what the hell,  o !    why didn’t you text me ?    thought they’d locked your ass  down  or somethin’.    had me all worried about’cha ‘n shit.     ❜     glimpses the fold of cash,  what looked like a hell of a lot more than pulling a date would get her.    almost feels  relieved.     ❛     hell yeah,  man.    i’m starvin’.    but you ain’t gotta  pay for me,  a’ight ?    save it,  ‘cause you’ll need it.    trust me.    you feelin’ breakfast,  or lunch ?     ❜

ORIGINALGRILLA.

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    that ain’t your  problem.    cases like this,   you know,   it ain’t rocket science    —    i worked bigger shitstorms at county.          but as much as he’s loath to admit it,   she’s right.    people don’t talk to cops.    particularly not the kind of people he has to track down,   names or no names.    having a fully - functional bullshit detector doesn’t make it any less of a hassle when somebody gives him the runaround.    it gets old  fast.       ‘     you think them motherfuckers are gonna let a kid grill ‘em for intel ?    you start askin’ too many questions,   what d’you think’s gonna happen ?    

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❛     yeah,  so ?    bet yo’ ass will still take  weeks  t’ get the answers i could get in two days.     ❜     providing her head is in it and not up on  cloud nine  next to poochie.    she hasn’t been this sober since finding out the truth about kallie and the pied piper.    thinks that  maybe,  maybe if she has something to do with herself,  temptation  won’t come calling.    maybe she won’t feel so uncomfortable in her own goddamn skin,  itching to get out of it.     ❛     didn’t say a damn thing about  me  doin’ all the  dirty work.    i still got people who owe me favours,  ‘n they know better than t’ lie     –––––     but hey,  if you don’t  trust  me,  then i’ll take my  intel  to someone else who’ll pass it along ‘n who knows what’ll happen  then.    ball’s in yo’ court,  playa.     ❜

PERILOUSPOTION.

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fingers find the hem of her shirt,  wiggling the fabric a ‘lil.  ‘ niiiice.  but no. i … do NOT think i could pull that off.  i mean,  you look HOT as fuck.  but me ? .. nah. ‘  she brings her shirt up then,  exposing her bare stomach.  ‘ i was thinking more .. you know .. this. ‘  her eyes lower to her bellybutton,  before slowly rising;  meeting the other’s gaze once more.  ‘ wanna stick a needle in me ? ‘

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she almost feels a little too  raw,  like a part of her had been exposed.    hadn’t anticipated the conversation to take a turn like that and wants to  slam  on the brakes.     (    doesn’t respond well to  flattery  because she never receives it and wouldn’t care for it even if she did.    )    being  looked at  makes her stomach  somersault,  and the bared midriff that’s been revealed doesn’t do the  heat  searing the nape of her neck any  favours.     ❛     ain’t you like seventeen or somethin’ ?    don’t’cha got someone your own age t’ be  flashin’ your shit  to ?   damn.     ❜

ORIGINALGRILLA.

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when it comes down to it,   he probably couldn’t shut her out now if he’d  wanted  to.    he doesn’t.    making no move to get past her,   it’s less annoyance and more a disinclination to let go of  choice  in any capacity ;   he can’t stop her from sniffing around,   and  that’s  what bothers him.    she’s too hard - headed for that.    too smart for her own good,   sometimes.          alright.    so gimme a name ‘n i’ll follow up on it.    

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too  hard - headed,  yes.     smart ?    up for debate.    she’s fifteen and still governed by  emotion,  too often acting out on  impulse  rather than thinking things through.    still has a lot to learn.    but this is one of those times where her street - smarts outweigh his.    she scoffs,  light and airy and less out of derision than you might expect.     ❛     p’ft.    you know better’n that.    it don’t  work  that way,  bugs.    them triflin’ - ass motherfuckers ain’t gonna tell the cops jack,  ‘n even if they  did,  they’d steer you  sour.    loan - sharks hate  competition.    they’ll say anything t’ get competitors off the streets ‘cause that’s more  profit  for them,  you feel me ?    they’ll be runnin’ circles ‘round your crusty ass.     ❜

PERILOUSPOTION.

@junkyardteen

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i like it. ‘  a pause,  her head tilting;  eyes clearly staring at the silver that’s piercing the other’s brow.  ‘ do it yourself ? ‘

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❛     huh ?    oh.     ❜     a pause.    she takes to compliments similar to anything else.    with extreme caution and an air of mistrust.     (     it’s nothing  personal.     )     ❛     with a sewing needle,  yeah.    why ?    you  want  one  …  ?     ❜

CRAVESFREEDOM.

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                ❛  it is sick.  ❜  he takes note on her pun ( whether she meant to make one or not ),  ❛  but seriously, with everything that’s going on around here & — what happened to you, i think the less DEATH we talk about the better, even if that means crippling my number of conversation topics.  ❜  he shakes his head, letting out a weak laugh  ;  though shame does not manifest in him easily, he finds himself feeling more meek towards his QUIRKY, if not unnatural interest in serial killers, & the horror genre in general,  ❛  so, why don’t you throw a fact at me?  ❜

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she bristles.    becomes cold,  distant.    doesn’t appreciate being  reminded  of the night that turned her whole world inside out,  until she remembers:  he experienced the same trauma.    but that doesn’t make her feel  better.    it almost makes her feel worse,  somehow,  knowing that the lakewood six have been suffering at the hands of piper shaw’s masked accomplice.    gaze dips,  then levels,  shoulders rolling out a fair bit of tension.     ❛     a’ight     –––––     but i’m gonna be comin’ after your ass if someone ever puts a  gun  t’ my head ‘n asks me how a  prairie dog  whoops up on a ground squirrel,  ‘cause guess what ?    homegirl ain’t gonna have the answer.     ❜     she’s fortunate to have enough  animal trivia  on hand to keep them here a while.     ❛     octopuses have three hearts ?    ‘n their tentacles are sentient,  ‘cause over half their  neurons  are there,  so the octopus can be,  like,  goin’ about its business ‘n their arms are just doin’ whatever else.    they  literally  got a mind of their own.     ❜

ORIGINALGRILLA.

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it’s been a while since she busted out the nickname,   and there’s a fleeting few seconds where things are as they should be.    got him under my thumb.    he rounds the corner to where his car is parked,   keys in hand,   narrowly avoiding a  collision  because she won’t quit circling.       ‘     you ain’t on the payroll no more,   li’l man.    don’t want you gettin’ involved in this shit.          didn’t work out so well the last time.       ‘     i don’t  know  what kinda debt.    homeboy didn’t seem like the gamblin’ type    —    loan - sharking,   maybe.    

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after everything that’s happened,  from their last argument to finding out lyric and twitch had  abandoned  her,  she doesn’t think she has the strength to cope with someone else shutting her out.    not without  losing herself  somewhere down the line,  for the second time.     ❛     ain’t your choice t’  make  though,  is it ?     ❜     both arms secured across her chest,  back leant against the driver’s door.    she looks up,  half - expectant to be met with mild irritation.    even annoyance.     ❛     i might know a guy who knows a guy who can maybe help you out.    well,  not you,  but the case.     ❜

ORIGINALGRILLA.

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    case of me ‘n yo’  mama  playin’ late night marco - polo.          tasteless,   but he’d rather resort to bad jokes than actually address the issue at hand.    as it turns out,   making her spend twelve hours in a holding cell didn’t have quite the  scared straight  effect he’d hoped.       ‘     —    some fool dumped by the waterfront,   somethin’ about  debts  or whatever.    i got a CI on it.    

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❛     think you’re real funny,  don’t’cha bugs ?     ❜     they’re cut from the same  blood - stained  cloth.    she noticed this a long time ago.    (    he speaks her language without even trying.     )     the mention of another  informant  gives her pause for thought,  but she picks up the speed of her gait and sidesteps in front of him shortly after.     ❛     what kinda debt are we talkin’ about ?    you  replacin’  me now ?     ❜