un. independent rachel olmstead ( bullet ) of amc's the killing, diverging from canon after 3.07. deux. this blog is for writing and entertainment purposes only.
material.
un. my writing will, at times, be trigger heavy. i'd advise you not to follow if you're sensitive to topics such as rape and assault, violence, etc. deux. some things will be tagged, others won't. if you need something tagged, contact me. i tag triggers with ' trigger / ' or ' trigger mention / '.
muse.
un. bullet is not an easy character to get along with. she's abrasive and confrontational, hot - headed, and has lived on the streets for upwards of two years. i won't water down her scrappy personality for anyone's benefit. deux. if her attitude becomes an issue during our thread, we can always plot something else out.
shipping.
un. the muse is canonically homosexual and presumably homoromantic, so there will be no f/m ships unless they're platonic. deux. given that bullet is fifteen ( and a victim of recent violent sexual assault, ) smut is unlikely.
following.
un. i'm very cautious with who i follow on this blog because i prefer to have a quiet dash. if you don't have any writing on your blog, i won't follow you back. deux.if you're writing with users who make me uncomfortable, i'll immediately and quietly unfollow, or refrain from following period. these users are blocked and blacklisted for a reason. i don't want them on my dash. trois. i won't follow purple prosers because i can't understand what's being written half the time.
verses.
un. multi - verse and crossover friendly. deux. current timeline takes place during her recovery after being beaten and left for dead in the trunk of a car. she sustained severe physical trauma, flatlining three times in the twenty-four hours that followed before slipping into comatose for nearly three months. details are still a work in progress.
❛ I GOT MORE BALLS THAN YOU!
name. rachel olmstead. aka. bullet. age. fifteen going on sixteen. gender. cis female, she/her pronouns. date of birth. october twenty-eighth. residence. seattle, wa.
appearance. slightly malnourished, weight fluctuating due to living on the streets for nearly three years. stands at five feet, three inches ( on a good day. ) sports jet black hair with a streak of dark blue in the front, often looking greasy and dirty, with the sides and back shaved close. wears men's clothing. always looks on the brink of catching a cold.
( previous ) living conditions. squalor. she hung around skid row during the day, and squatted wherever she could at night, mostly in abandoned buildings or at beacon when beds were available. maintained at least a semblance of personal hygiene, but her stained smile told a different tale. clothes rarely saw the inside of a washing machine.
current timeline. parents are currently fighting against child protective services, but because of their negligence and abandonment ( knowingly allowing their child to leave home and live on the streets ), have been stripped of legal custody. after being discharged from the hospital, detective stephen holder was granted temporary guardianship of bullet until she's well enough to be put in the foster - care system.
bullet has every intention of getting the hell out of dodge as soon as possible to avoid this happening. accustomed to the lifestyle of living on the streets, she would sooner die than let an adult have authority over her. despite her extensive injuries, she can still be found roaming skid row, attempting to regain the trust her affiliation with the police shattered.
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‘ — so it’s like that. ’ if she’s angling for a distraction, he can commiserate ; but this can’t be the right way to go about it. she’s only been out of the hospital a few weeks. shouldn’t even be on the streets, let alone working cases. it’s another of those situations, like the drinking, like the drugs, that he has no control over : when she wants to do something, she’ll do it whether he gives her the green light or not. ‘ ain’t about trust. look, you wanna call in a favor ? fine. but that’s it, y’ hear ? don’t even breathe on this case unless it goes through me first. ’
❛ yup. ❜ it’s like that, because she’s grown tired of catering to what others think she needs versus what she thinks she needs, which is nothing if not purpose. a will to keep herself afloat. one that she’ll find anywhere she can. she wants to help.not herself, but those she cares about. it’s all she’s ever wanted to do. she lifts a hand to brush beneath her nose, drawing in a breath and casting a sidelong glance before looking back. ❛ it ain’t about trust, but you were just givin’ me the third degree over some scratch ? whatever, yo. ain’t gonna dick around on yo’ case ‘n fuck it up. scout’s honour. ❜
‘ eighteen. ‘ she quickly corrects, eyes darting down to her bare middle. ‘ my shit ? it’s just my stomach. ‘ & to prove her point, she keeps the shirt raised, a clear act of defiance. she refuses to back down. ‘ if you don’t want to do it, that’s fine. i’ll go get it pierced at some shop that charges way too much& requires a fucking birth certificate. or .. you could stop treating me like a high school prostitute& help me out. your pick. but just so you know .. i prefer the latter. ‘
❛ oh, much better. ❜ sarcasm coats the tongue, laid on thick as arms fold over her chest. doesn’t need to ask if the girl has always been this forward because she knows the type too well. actively avoids even catching a glimpse of skin, gaze narrowed in elsewhere. sea level, eye to eye ( because if she doesn’t see it, she doesn’t run the risk of embarrassment. ) ❛ all they’re gonna ask for is your driver’s license, yo. but that’s your call t’ make. you really gonna let a dirty - ass kid stick a needle in you ? ❜ as if to drive her point home, she unfolds her arms to present the dirt and grime beneath her fingernails, encrusted around cuticles. her hands are bruised, unclean. a result of living on the streets.
she figures there’s no better place to wait for bullet than the overpass, if she was certain to show up anywhere, it was here. It took a few hours of waiting & patience ( which she doesn’t have much of, but the cheap pacman knock-off on her burner phone kept her entertained. ) when bullet enters her field of vision, she’s easy to spot, her short stature a dead giveaway. ❛ hey! ❜ she calls out, waiting until the girl notices her before approaching, ❛ i’m back. — & i think it’s actually for good this time. ❜ it’s not the first time she’s made such a claim only to be picked up and returned to her foster home ; she struggles to blend into the shadows of the city streets. ❛ — you HUNGRY? ❜ her hand dives into her jacket pocket to retrieve a small wad of cash, discretely flashing the bills her way before tucking the money back into the safety of her coat. ❛ my treat. ❜ ( @junkyardteen )
she hadn’t stopped moving since her feet touched ground this morning. hadn’t intended to. hadn’t wanted to until she reached the bridge, where she could look out over the water and imagine kallie somewhere close by. ( picture this. an impossible distance lies between you and your best friend, but there is comfort in knowing she counts the same stars, wherever she is, and that the water that flows in the rivers of seattle, smooth like glass on this bitter morning, will find her eventually. ) intercepted at the overpass only two blocks from her destination, she’s met with a familiar face. one she hasn’t seen in weeks, and that alone is enough to lift her spirits. ❛ yo, what the hell, o ! why didn’t you text me ? thought they’d locked your ass down or somethin’. had me all worried about’cha ‘n shit. ❜ glimpses the fold of cash, what looked like a hell of a lot more than pulling a date would get her. almost feels relieved. ❛ hell yeah, man. i’m starvin’. but you ain’t gotta pay for me, a’ight ? save it, ‘cause you’ll need it. trust me. you feelin’ breakfast, or lunch ? ❜
‘ that ain’t your problem. cases like this, you know, it ain’t rocket science — i worked bigger shitstorms at county. ’ but as much as he’s loath to admit it, she’s right. people don’t talk to cops. particularly not the kind of people he has to track down, names or no names. having a fully - functional bullshit detector doesn’t make it any less of a hassle when somebody gives him the runaround. it gets old fast. ‘ you think them motherfuckers are gonna let a kid grill ‘em for intel ? you start askin’ too many questions, what d’you think’s gonna happen ? ’
❛ yeah, so ? bet yo’ ass will still take weeks t’ get the answers i could get in two days. ❜ providing her head is in it and not up on cloud nine next to poochie. she hasn’t been this sober since finding out the truth about kallie and the pied piper. thinks that maybe, maybe if she has something to do with herself, temptation won’t come calling. maybe she won’t feel so uncomfortable in her own goddamn skin, itching to get out of it. ❛ didn’t say a damn thing about me doin’ all the dirty work. i still got people who owe me favours, ‘n they know better than t’ lie ––––– but hey, if you don’t trust me, then i’ll take my intel to someone else who’ll pass it along ‘n who knows what’ll happen then. ball’s in yo’ court, playa. ❜
fingers find the hem of her shirt, wiggling the fabric a ‘lil. ‘ niiiice. but no. i … do NOT think i could pull that off. i mean, you look HOT as fuck. but me? .. nah. ‘ she brings her shirt up then, exposing her bare stomach. ‘ i was thinking more .. you know .. this. ‘ her eyes lower to her bellybutton, before slowly rising; meeting the other’s gaze once more. ‘ wanna stick a needle in me ? ‘
she almost feels a little too raw, like a part of her had been exposed. hadn’t anticipated the conversation to take a turn like that and wants to slam on the brakes. ( doesn’t respond well to flattery because she never receives it and wouldn’t care for it even if she did. ) being looked at makes her stomach somersault, and the bared midriff that’s been revealed doesn’t do the heat searing the nape of her neck any favours. ❛ ain’t you like seventeen or somethin’ ? don’t’cha got someone your own age t’ be flashin’ your shit to ? damn. ❜
when it comes down to it, he probably couldn’t shut her out now if he’d wanted to. he doesn’t. making no move to get past her, it’s less annoyance and more a disinclination to let go of choice in any capacity ; he can’t stop her from sniffing around, and that’s what bothers him. she’s too hard - headed for that. too smart for her own good, sometimes. ‘ alright. so gimme a name ‘n i’ll follow up on it. ’
too hard - headed, yes. smart ? up for debate. she’s fifteen and still governed by emotion, too often acting out on impulse rather than thinking things through. still has a lot to learn. but this is one of those times where her street - smarts outweigh his. she scoffs, light and airy and less out of derision than you might expect. ❛ p’ft. you know better’n that. it don’t work that way, bugs. them triflin’ - ass motherfuckers ain’t gonna tell the cops jack, ‘n even if they did, they’d steer you sour. loan - sharks hate competition. they’ll say anything t’ get competitors off the streets ‘cause that’s more profit for them, you feel me ? they’ll be runnin’ circles ‘round your crusty ass. ❜
‘ i like it. ‘ a pause, her head tilting; eyes clearly staring at the silver that’s piercing the other’s brow. ‘ do it yourself ? ‘
❛ huh ?oh. ❜ a pause. she takes to compliments similar to anything else. with extreme caution and an air of mistrust. ( it’s nothing personal.) ❛ with a sewing needle, yeah. why ? you want one … ? ❜
❛ it is sick. ❜ he takes note on her pun ( whether she meant to make one or not ), ❛ but seriously, with everything that’s going on around here & — what happened to you,i think the less DEATH we talk about the better, even if that means crippling my number of conversation topics. ❜ he shakes his head, letting out a weak laugh ; though shame does not manifest in him easily, he finds himself feeling more meek towards his QUIRKY, if not unnatural interest in serial killers, & the horror genre in general, ❛ so, why don’t you throw a fact at me? ❜
she bristles. becomes cold, distant. doesn’t appreciate being reminded of the night that turned her whole world inside out, until she remembers: he experienced the same trauma. but that doesn’t make her feel better. it almost makes her feel worse, somehow, knowing that the lakewood six have been suffering at the hands of piper shaw’s masked accomplice. gaze dips, then levels, shoulders rolling out a fair bit of tension. ❛ a’ight ––––– but i’m gonna be comin’ after your ass if someone ever puts a gun t’ my head ‘n asks me how a prairie dog whoops up on a ground squirrel, ‘cause guess what ? homegirl ain’t gonna have the answer. ❜ she’s fortunate to have enough animal trivia on hand to keep them here a while. ❛ octopuses have three hearts ? ‘n their tentacles are sentient, ‘cause over half their neurons are there, so the octopus can be, like, goin’ about its business ‘n their arms are just doin’ whatever else. they literally got a mind of their own. ❜
it’s been a while since she busted out the nickname, and there’s a fleeting few seconds where things are as they should be. got him under my thumb. he rounds the corner to where his car is parked, keys in hand, narrowly avoiding a collision because she won’t quit circling. ‘ you ain’t on the payroll no more, li’l man. don’t want you gettin’ involved in this shit. ’ didn’t work out so well the last time. ‘ i don’t know what kinda debt. homeboy didn’t seem like the gamblin’ type — loan - sharking, maybe. ’
after everything that’s happened, from their last argument to finding out lyric and twitch had abandoned her, she doesn’t think she has the strength to cope with someone else shutting her out. not without losing herself somewhere down the line, for the second time. ❛ ain’t your choice t’ make though, is it ? ❜ both arms secured across her chest, back leant against the driver’s door. she looks up, half - expectant to be met with mild irritation. even annoyance. ❛ i might know a guy who knows a guy who can maybe help you out. well, not you, but the case. ❜
‘ case of me ‘n yo’ mama playin’ late night marco - polo. ’ tasteless, but he’d rather resort to bad jokes than actually address the issue at hand. as it turns out, making her spend twelve hours in a holding cell didn’t have quite the scared straight effect he’d hoped. ‘ — some fool dumped by the waterfront, somethin’ about debts or whatever. i got a CI on it. ’
❛ think you’re real funny, don’t’cha bugs ? ❜ they’re cut from the same blood - stained cloth. she noticed this a long time ago. (he speaks her language without even trying.) the mention of another informant gives her pause for thought, but she picks up the speed of her gait and sidesteps in front of him shortly after. ❛ what kinda debt are we talkin’ about ? you replacin’ me now ? ❜